I never wanted to be one of those people that spent their free time thinking, dreaming about work. But that's exactly what's happened. Some friends and I were at Matt's going away and about 90% of the conversation was about work. I guess it could be because all the people I knew there were from work, but still isn't it weird that we end a whole week of work, and still talk about it. I know it makes sense cos work is a huge component of our lives right now. It's the same when we were in uni i guess, I would always be thinking of some assignment or test that was coming up.
Lol I'm still talking about work and it's still a monday! Hate mondays! and since I'm saving my RDOs for my next trip, I'm stuck working 10 day fortnights (as apposed to 9 day fortnights)...i know i know, some people don't have that option even, but that's the beauty of working for Council.
We were at Little Creatures on Brunswick St, Melbourne for Matt's going away last friday. He should feel so lucky, he gets to travel and play sport on his holiday. Wow, wish I had skills like that. I bet if i tried my skill would be racing cars, haha. Could be like Frankie Muniz..oh wait - except for one fact - Not loaded enough for that career!
Remember me talking about my USA trip? I still haven't shown my parents the photos (2 months later), basically cos I know they won't approve of who I went with, I know I should have been honest and upfront about it, and it hurts that there's this big secret now. But I think it's too late to tell them now anyway. This was basically Matts last conversation with me, how I should be upfront with them, and not fear their reaction. He made me feel so guilty for what I did, but I agree with him. I mean he has a point - if some time in the future if I wanted to travel by myself or with someone they wouldn't approve of - am I just not going to go? Or would I be stuck having to formulate a lie again just to get away?
Anyway, now I'm always on edge cos if someone really wanted to they could just look find out the truth. But see thats the thing with me, I never wanted this to be such an elaborate lie, so my thing is on the surface everything will seem fine and true, but if you look deeper - you'll find out the truth. I think subconsciously i just want them to know, but I'm just too scared of the repercussions to tell them myself.
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| This is actually a photo of our hotels (Mirage, Vegas) keycard. |
I'm so confused about this situation! I lost my best friend because of this, I didn't tell any of my girlfriends who I was really going with. But I told my work friends, long story short - they had to know, whereas my girlfriends didn't need to know. Anyway, when I got back from my trip, I put the photos up on facebook, and L discovered who I had really gone with, she just lost it with me. She messaged me immediately saying - can't believe you lied to my face, etc. My reasoning is that she hates the person I went with, so if I had told her the truth there would have been months of teasing and torture on me, and the other reason was, the girls are too close to my siblings and in the past when I've told the girls something in confidence, my siblings have always been able to get them to 'slip up' and let them know. And this was just one thing I could NOT have them slip up. So I chose not to tell them. Fair?
I explained this to L when I got back. Plus I was never going to not tell them. Like I said it was never meant to be an elaborate lie. So by the time I landed, 2 of my friends had already discovered the truth due to some not so discrete status updates (lol me and my friend had the same status' most times), anyway they weren't mad. It was only L that just lost it at me! I don't understand how some of the girls are cool with it, I mean they understand why I did what I did, yet L chooses to be really childish. I just want her to get over it. I think she's one of those people that just loves to pick on one thing when people mess up and just use it against them until she knows they feel so bad about it. I already gave her everything she wanted, I apologised, I explained the reasoning, I did everything I thought was good enough to make her not be mad with me. Yet she still is.
I don't really know what else to do. She deleted me as a facebook friend and sent me a msg saying 'consider our friendship OFFICIALLY OVER' lol and I'm not even exaggerating. So you can see that she's abit of a drama queen. And this msg was all because I had 'liked' something on facebook. She thought it was about her, when in reality it had nothing to do with her!
I think I've done my part with her. I'm doubtful if we can get past this, but healing requires time, and I hope that'll be enough for her. I've moved on, I can look at this, acknowledge the wrong in it, but still be able to laugh at the situation, and I hope one day she'll reach that point. If not, I'll just consider it her loss.
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